"The Star that You Grieve" poem by Rev Kip Batiz

"The Star that You Grieve" 

By Rev Kip Batiz

You watch you wait you try to relate

Stifled confusion you attempt to negate

A Driving a desire a want to be great

In slight hesitation of gallop and gate

In questioning meaning while wiping the slate

You ponder your value you wonder and wait

This deep seeded treasure you can not escape

Feels like an anchor a hindering weight 

You have it within you though you can not explain 

The people around you that's who's to blame

Keep hiding your greatness so that they dont hate 

This falsehood facade of adolescent opaque 

If you somehow hold on it might keep you safe

It triggers that static it goes against fate

You know you are more than what they bring to your plate

I wish you could see how I see you today

Your glow your curves that body that face

I wouldve built you a castle with a mote and a gate 

To keep out the serpents just out of arms length 

The queen that's within you she wants to be free

To Sing and to dance to show the world how great

I feel you at moments like a present debris 

Fractals of time that are stuck on repeat 

Things that I wish the words I would eat

The moments I missed cause I just couldnt see 

How you couldn't see how I couldn't breathe

I'd put you on top of my fantasy 

Cause the things that we shared that made me believe 

That I'd be your hero and make you complete

Oh silly me to have such beliefs 

A wandering fool the idiots journey 

I love you so much that it hurts when I see 

That you cannot see the shining star that you grieve 

-Rev Kip Batiz 

You are one with the light cause were all made of stars 🌞🌜

Impermanence

Impermanence

Our minds can rarely fathom infinitesimal things. Recently I have been coming into a lesson of impermanence. This idea that the value of one's life can be found in Legacy, but how do we measure Legacy? How can you measure the impact that you had on other people? 

Our conception of value has been skewed to essentially embody importance of material or tangible gain when in fact we have been told what to value by measurable parameters, such as Rarity to find, or difficulty to obtain. When we use these things to Define our value, we are falling into a trap of lack mentality.  The importance of our life cannot be Quantified from the external, and while our impact on the external is visible and measurable, it should not be held as value. 

The idea of impermanence, while not very fathomable is persistent. The strongest structures weather in time, the principles of one's life are slowly integrated and forgotten. Our ancestors understood the concept of Cycles- for everything has its place in time and in the Material. Clinging to the Past has a stagnation effect that leads to imbalance and dis-ease. While Matter itself is subject to the laws of the material, it is proven that energy stays consistent and cannot be destroyed. 

The concept of reincarnation shows that energy can be consistent even if the structure of matter is not. The idea that there is one energetic being that keeps coming back to this reality is simply Cycles playing out their purpose. Choosing to not acknowledge the cyclical nature of our being is similar to blocking the path of a gear. In choosing to stay or live in the past we are stifling the rotation of the gears in direct proportion to our own. When we refuse to let the gears turn we inherently prevent growth or progression of other people in their Cycles. 

A wise man once told me to stop looking in my rearview since I'm not going that direction. Accepting the impermanence of all things in life including our place in it is very liberating. I myself have been a victim of my own unwillingness to acknowledge the impermanence of all things. It caused much destruction, depression, distortion, and dis-ease. 

The art of impactfulness does hinge on the ability to recognize when the part we play has served its purpose. We can then choose to replay these moments in our mind going over what should have been, what could have been, or we can choose to accept the new role that we have been given. 

Grace is a combination of style and purpose. When purpose can be served in an aesthetically pleasing or Artful format it is said to have Grace- to be in line with the Divine. When your role has been completed will you bow out in grace? 

-Reverend Kip Batiz